i wish i’ll always be goofy like this….
i need someone to tell me that it’s ok……
maybe i’m thinking about it too much. maybe i’m not used to someone have feelings for me. maybe i’m used to getting dumped and i’m used to be crushed. that’s why i started to think things negatively. so that when it happens to me again, i’ll be tough and i’ll be prepared…..
all of a sudden, when i thought that there’s no use for me to find love because of all disappointments that i faced, he showed up. i knew him or at least i thought i knew. i’m none like the girls in his league. and sometimes it made me think, ” bro, maybe you’ve picked the wrong girl. you don’t want me. “
but i liked him and i accepted him. and through our relationship, i kept thinking that. but everybody kept telling me that ” this guy really loves you. ” and the truth is, i’m scared. i’m scared. that’s what other guys said too, but they end up leaving me….
my music……..
5 year-old qushwa : when i was in kindergarten , the songs that i knew were (i’m sure that you guys are familiar with these songs) Malaysia Boleh! Patriotik kejap. ‘Rasa Sayang’ , ‘Anak Itik Tok Wi’ , ‘Burung Kakak Tua’ and a whole bunch of songs that will make you clap your hands as you listen to them. man , back then , everyday is a happy day …. :)
12 year-old qushwa : teenager abroad! darah remaja tengah mengalir dalam badan. (oh , please don’t say that.) -__-” hahahaah! i started to listen to Breaking Benjamin. i have no idea why but all i know was orang yang menyanyi sampai dah nak terkeluar anak tekak is quite awesome!….. (?) so, Diary of Jane is the only song that i listened to. the entire year. (now folks, that’s a lie.)
13 year-old qushwa : i was being emotional for some reasons. (tidak ku tahu mengapa). when talking about emo , My Chemical Romance will always be there. itu yang tiap - tiap hari pon nak kene pakai eyeliner tu. oh ya! Good Charlotte. the famous band with the tattooed twins. but luckily , The Click Five muncul with their famous single, Jenny. good bye eyeliner and tattoo , HELLO skinny jeans! hahahaha.
(and it went on till i turned 16.)
17 year-old qushwa : i’ve changed. (huk eleh.) -__-“. i started to listened to Duffy , Lily Allen , Adele. which is a good thing as it doesn’t involve eyeliner. no! i take it all back , eyeliner is very very very important. menaikkan seri mata you! (in a gedik way…) hahahaah , Kina Grannis, Michael Carreon, and my new it band, Foster The People. Awesomeeee!!!! 2 thumbs up people, thumbs up!
